Beware the Extremists, There’s Always a Reason For Why They Are the Way They Are

November 6, 2006


I am a deceiver and a liar. There is a part of my life that is so repulsive and dark that I’ve been warring against it all of my adult life,” wrote Ted Haggard, 50, who was fired Saturday as head of the 14,000-member church.

*sigh* How can you get it so incredibly backwards? The problem, dear Ted Haggard, is not that you think you have a sexual problem. The problem is that you and your followers don’t realize that you don’t have a problem. But instead of accepting the inevitable conclusion of this episode, that maybe it’s just good old human nature and not a choice as you so often claim, you cling to millenia-old scriptures that were written in a time when people were ignorant, thought that the world is a disc, women had no rights and homophobia still reigned supreme.

The other problem, of course, is that you’re a hypocritical asshole who wasn’t man enough to stand up to his nature and channelled his “demons” into public campaigns of intollerance instead. But that is almost incidental – not being able to cope with the first issue and looking for an outlet paved the road to where we are now.

In other news: people protesting the message of tollerance. Gotta love the irony of that. I’m assuming that the play in question is The Laramie Project. Victoria was assistant director on that play a few years ago, now I’m glad I know about it.

Today’s Weird Search Result

November 6, 2006

I have no idea why somebody would search for this. And end up on my page. Fun to see, though…

NWN 2

November 4, 2006

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So far, so easy and straight-forward. I can convert Obsidian’s stuff to .obj, hook up the diffuse maps and make my own models based on those templates. The asset complexity doesn’t look too bad, either. Getting this back into the game is an entirely different matter, it’s currently limited and you have to resolve to hacks. Waiting for some better tools to add custom geometry with all shader effects into the toolset.

I guess I’ll get started on some simple tileset stuff. Looks like NWN2 tiles are just arbitrary building blocks now, with no more connection rules and crazy stencil shadow meshes to consider like in the old NWN.

Maybe I’m Projecting…But Probably Not

November 4, 2006

You know what’s sad about the whole Ted Haggard story? All those Evangelical Christians on their “we’re protecting the family values of America” high horses won’t wake up and smell the roses, realizing that hypocricy reigns supreme in many of their circles. Instead, every second sermon on Sunday morning will cite this event as proof that the devil is well alive and walking this world, just waiting to seduce every single one of them – unless they are ever watchful and keep going to their ritualistic megachurch ceremonies of course. Because obviously, if it can happen to somebody with as much integrity and high moral values as Ted Haggard, it can happen to everybody! And only strict following of the church’s rules – not a healthy and relaxed outlook on life – will protect you.

I don’t mean to offend religious and spiritual people or lump them together in the same category as the lot above. But to me megachurches and TV priests symbolize everything that is wrong with organized religion and institutionalizing what, at its core, is a good idea.

Now Playing: Neverwinter Nights 2

November 3, 2006

God I’m excited for this game. The first one was good, the construction kit was great, and from what I hear the editor for NWN 2 won’t be an inch worse than what the first game offered. And that’s really what it’s all about, you know: the construction kit. I spent a good part of my highschool life making D&D modules for Unlimited Adventures, and…well, making stuff for “other” games (even though I barely finish, let alone release, much anymore) is plain fun. I’m hoping for a fun built-in single-player campaign, but tapping into NWN 2′s seemingly limitless potential is what it’s all about.

Too bad this game is such a resource hog. My 7800GTX can decently render the interiors at 1280×1024 (which is a crooked resolution for my natively 1600×1200 LCD icon neutral Now Playing: Neverwinter Nights 2 ), but as soon as I leave the house and get into that first campaign fight the game chugs majorly for reasons entirely unknown. It all looks decent, but not very complex and like it should warrant such high system requirements. And the toolset doesn’t even load on my Dell, it crashes on startup. Probably some laptop ATI driver issue, my desktop machine works fine. But still annoying as hell when said toolset is such a major selling point.

I’ll dig in deeper over the weekend to evaluate the gameplay. First impressions were okay, but I haven’t played far enough yet. I hear the story and conversations are really good, so that’ll be fun to explore. And of course I want to see how painless it currently is to author custom content. I already downloaded the .obj converter, but it’s 3rd part and I don’t know yet how well it performs.

My Ambivalent Romance

October 30, 2006

It seems that the marketing machine is in hight gear for My Chemical Romance, a band I’d never heard of until last week because I don’t listen to radio, and…well, because I’m getting old and just not down with the kids anymore. MCR were the live act on Saturday Night Live a week ago, and yesterday I saw them plastered all over iTunes. The thing is, I kinda liked the SNL performances. In a day and age when we usually fast-forward though the musical live acts (except for the occasional inspired performance, like Beck this weekend), I took the time to listen to both MCR songs. They seemed a bit too concerned with their image (what were those outfits and the hairdo about?), but still, they were a good live act and made me listen. Fallout Boy didn’t manage that, and the much touted Killers certainly didn’t manage to do that (just to pull two examples out of my hat).

Being the good consumer whore that I am, I bought the MCR album on iTunes yesterday (after some complications, documented a few posts below). First impressions are mixed. It’s good, solid punk rock, but the only song that stands out in any memorable way is Welcome To The Black Parade. Which, coincidently enough, is also the SNL performace that I remembered. The rest kinda goes through the motions. As I said: good, solid punk rock. But not inspired in any way. Maybe the other tracks will grow on me after a few more listening sessions. If not the album will go into the depths of the iPod shuffle to randomly reappear every few weeks as a pleasant, but forgettable reminder. Like Finger Eleven a couple years ago. Back when I still listened to radio…

iTunes Fun

October 29, 2006

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What does that even mean? Gotta love cryptic error messages.

Now Playing: Dark Messiah

October 29, 2006

The copy of Dark Messiah that I bought yesterday leaves me no choice but to bitch. I really wanna like this game, but in the first 10 minutes of the game I’ve already died a dozen times and am stuck because apparently, I need some degree in Fantasy Ladder Climbing to get up a ladder that *might* save me from a quickly approaching zombie thing that came out of nowhere and I can’t quite defend against. Instead, I keep running into the ladder with nothing happening and get killed again and again. Apparently I’m not the only person this is happening to, and apparently it’s a bug. A bug where you can’t climb a ladder on the critical path ten minutes into the game?! You got to be kidding me.

Let’s not even get into the fact that I first installed the DVD version, and when it asked me whether I wanted to associate the game with my Steam account (cool, I think, gets the game patched automatically) it did not just associate the game with my Steam account – it downloaded a 2nd copy of the whole game into my Steam directory! Which took about 3 hours.

Maybe I’ve been too spoiled by console releases that work out of the box, or maybe the PC market is really going to hell. Judging by the even small area of shelf space that my local EB now has alloted to PC releases, that’s definitely the case. And who can blame them when consumers have to deal with stuff like this.

On the positive side, this game does look very promising. Can’t wait until I can actually play it! ;(

I reinstalled the DVD version of Dark Messiah and was able to proceed at the point where I was formerly stuck. Since then, the game has run smoothly and without bugs.

It’s a good game, the first one that has made sword- and other types of melee fighting fun for a long time. Handling those daggers is pretty damn cool. And I find myself going back and forth between all sorts of ways to kill enemies, everything is well done. Graphics are okay, but the environments are kinda bland. Maybe I’m too biased because of Wheel of Time, but I still haven’t seen a fantasy game that has made significant visual leaps and bounds from what WoT offered 7 years ago. The story isn’t terribly intriguing yet, and I get most mission objectives from them telling me “now do this”, not because they naturally flow from the game. But then again I don’t really care once the atmosphere of the current mission grips me.

Fun little game if you expect WoT/Thief and not another Underworld or Arx Fatalis. I’ve read that it gets repetitive later on, but so far I’ve been entertained.

The War of the Flowers

October 29, 2006

Tad Williams is still one hell of a writer. I was a bit worn out after finishing Otherland a while ago, but now I’m back with The War of the Flowers. I’m only past page 100, but so far I’ve been entertained every second. Entertained in a very dark, depressing way, that is, but who says that’s a bad thing when the book is written so well.

Open Wheel Racing

October 22, 2006

The IRL is returning to Infineon Raceway in 2007, and Michael Schuhmacher ends his career today. Oh, and I’m watching the NASCAR race, so it’s time to update with some racing stuff! At this year’s IRL race, there was an exhibition of classic Formula 1 cars with some cool entries. Here’s the Ferrari 312 T-2, the car in which Niki Lauda raced to the chanpionship in 1976/77. There’s also an exhibit description for the car, and Wikipedia has a picture of Niki driving the car.

I don’t remember the cars above (I was born in 76), but I sure remember the Formula 1 races of the early 80s. Niki Lauda, Alain Prost in their red-white Malboro McLarens. The second image shows one of the early versions, the McLaren M-30 that Alain Prost was driving in 1980. Doesn’t look like he had much success back then, but of course that would change in 1984-87.